just me

NO MORE ALCOHOL FOR ME!!!! too much calories/carbs!!

Diet pills should be here before the weekend, so i can see how my body reacts to them before i be taking them at work.

Plan for today is to purge lunch and then have a piece of baked chicken for dinner. and to have dinner early. I think i need to get a food scale…

I don’t think we have anything going on this weekend so i can stay on track and try out my new pills. hopefully i can break through this number i am stuck at :(

until then, i need to do some work…blah

Maybe one day he will talk about me like he talks about her. I would give almost anything to be able to purge right now. OMG :-( wonder if he would believe I was sick?

diet pills

what do you lovelies recommend? not recommend? i need something that will help me to not eat and give me energy.

Hoodia? Hydroxycut? Zantrex 3? There are so many choices…

OMG i FUCKING gained HOW is THIS even POSSIBLE? i’m in tears, i just want to go home and sit in the closet and cry. alone, because that is what i deserve. i will suffer today. oh yes. suffer. i’m just sitting here staring at the computer, but not actually seeing anything. i’m not even here, i’m lost in the nothingness. how did i let this happen, i’m so weak it makes me sick. i would purge but i have nothing to purge, so i will just sit and cry and cry and pretend i don’t exist.

Question about logging food

how do i log when i purge? i am on My Fitness Pal and i have been logging half of what i actually consume (when i purge, i TRY not to purge EVERY meal) since i’m pretty sure i’m not purging everything, but

What do you do?

my new BFF’s

coffee and green tea :)

Waht a transformation!!! if she can do it so can I…

i hope.

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casperxtina:

Haters FUCK YOU

i just like this…LOL

purged

at work and got the shit on my shirt. now WTF am i going to do……….

fuckfuckfuck