oh, please let this work day be over soon!!!
and thank you God for Tums, they are literally saving my life right now :)
I'm too old to still be dealing with this shit, but I am. I just want to be skinny. For my thighs to not touch. To have hip bones. For him to want me. For him to think I am beautiful. No one I know in "real" life knows the things about me that I post on here. Please don't judge me.
1st GW 150
2nd GW 140
UGW as little as possible
I am 5'7
Oh, I'm not promoting ED's, this is just about me and my life. In fact I would HATE for someone else to go through this hell because of me or something I said. For the record...
had a great vacation at the beach with my family and boyfriend :)
now i am back to the hell that is reality.
going shopping with my best friend tomorrow. i haven’t been shopping in forever because it makes me so depressed. but all my clothes are way too big and i have to go and help her too. i’m so nervous, i have been purging like a crazy person all week…
I can feel my heart pounding through my whole body. Anyone know why?
My boyfriend noticed my weightloss! He saw me in my jeans today. Said oh my goodness and patted me on the butt. What? I said. “tu mas paqueno” you are smaller he said. I can’t imagine the happiness on my face when I looked at him! God I Love Him. He can never know about my disorder. Never.
I’m so happy :)
i will starve and/or purge everything today. maybe i have finally broken through this plateau.